Blogging in B Minor

It’s time for my 60 day check so I will have an MRI tomorrow morning at 8:00am. As per usual, I’ll hand-carry the films for an 11am meeting with my neurosurgeon and oncologist so we can discuss the outcome. I have some anxiety but as I’ve said before and believe in my heart, it’s all in God’s hands. There is nothing outside of everything I am doing that can change the outcome. I think it’s only human, however, to have anxiety about it. This will be a clearer view than before. The MRI on October 1st was right after 6 weeks of daily chemotherapy and 5 day a week radiation. Even though we are certain there was no enhancement (the tumor was quite stable), it is still difficult at that stage to get a clear picture of what is going on what with everything that area of the brain had been subjected to in a short period of time – surgery, radiation, chemo, etc. This MRI, although I have been through chemo treatment for 2 cycles, will be clearer.

The cold I have had has turned into a really bad cold. I was home yesterday and today. One of the worst colds I have had in a long time. I’m not sure if it’s because it is truly a bad cold or if it’s because my immune system is weaker because of the cancer and chemotherapy and as a result it’s hitting me hard. Maybe both. Nonetheless, when I see my oncologist tomorrow she may delay the start of my third cycle – we will see. A young boy was here on Saturday to play with my son and after he was here for about 10 minutes I knew I may be in for it – he had kleenex and was wiping his nose. We have told people and I am careful about exposure. I kept my distance, Lysol’d the door knobs and everything when he left! Well, it was to no avail. So, I’ll get through it but it’s something else to deal with when you are going through chemotherapy.

The last thing that has been just a bit strange lately is this sense of deja vu’ I have been feeling It was Christmastime last year that all of this started. At this time last year, everything was seemingly normal although we all know this was in my brain and I didn’t know it yet. It was the Wednesday before Xmas when I had the symptoms that we determined later to be a seizure – numbness in my left hand and wrist, a slight droop in the left side of my mouth. That is all I ever presented with – but it led to this diagnosis and I’m glad it did. If I didn’t have those symptoms this would have just grown unknowingly in my brain and knowing everything I do now, and the type of tumor this is and how it evolves, I would have likely been diagnosed with a glioblastoma multforme by the time it was detected which is what happens in the majority of the cases. So, the Holidays are a bit different for me now but are still a happy time to spend with family. I’m not the type to let an event or circumstances over shadow things.

That’s it for now. I’ll post results of the MRI on Friday or over the weekend depending on when I have time and what they are. I appreciate everyone’s support…

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